walking whale

Was doing amazing for so long now i feel fatter than ever. I finally stop worrying about constantly feeling like shit and looking like shit and what happens i gain weight. i decided i didnt care if my boyfriend thought i was beautiful and got fatter i didnt give a fuck what anyone thought and it bit me in the ass. granted i still dont give 2 fucks what ppl think about me but i do care how i feel about myself and i feel like shit every since i stopped throwing up after meals its been a daily struggle to convince myself that im good enough and worth not hurting myself to look good. 

for anyone who cares

So I don’t feel like i need to explain myself cause I don’t I am more or less doing this because I need to get it off my chest. My boyfriends father past away abput 2 weeks ago now, he was only 39. He was the only person my boyfriend really had and now hes gone. because I really have no want or need to post or use Tumblr anymore i want to spend the time I do have being with him through this hard time. So within the next few weeks I will most likely be deleting my account and moving on to more productive things.

Again to anyone who cares stopping abusing drug people are counting on you to be there dont be selfish and Tumblr, its been grand Adios!